2015-05-17 by George Kaplan
(Editor’s note: On 17th May 2015, Kathy Moorhead Thiessen gave a presentation about her work in Iraqi Kurdistan with Christian Peacemaker Teams (CPT). This is an example of her blog about the work at www.goinpeacenottopieces.blogspot.com.)
Saturday, 14th March 2015
When I entered Iraqi Kurdistan in December I had some extra cash with me. Several Canadians who had seen presentations by CPT-ers about the dire situation of refugees and Internationally Displaced Persons (IDPs) in Iraqi Kurdistan had asked how they could send money to help. I offered to carry the dollars to Sulaimani to give directly to a small NGO who would know best how to use it.
So, when I got to Sulaimani, I called our friend Parween. She gratefully received the money and invited me to go to the bazaar with her. She knew exactly what she wanted to buy and where to go. I was so impressed with her bargaining skills as she bought 250 warm sweaters, socks and gloves for preschool children in Arbat Camp.
The vendor was very sympathetic and gave her the best price possible. He also paid the carrying charge for the man who put the huge bundle of sweaters onto his back to carry down 3 storeys to the taxi. Lastly he covered the cost of a warm fleecy suit of clothing for a little girl who wandered into the shop begging for money and showing the holes in her trousers.
A few days later Parween arranged for her son to drive us to Arbat displaced persons’ Camp. She spoke to the camp manager to discern the best method of distribution. They decided that the clothes would go inside the compound around the kindergarten tent. The families would be outside the fence. I did not realise how important this would be.
As several of us bagged the clothing to make it easier to hand over, somehow the word went out to the camp that a distribution was about to take place. Parween had lists of families with the target age of children and she hoped that she had enough for every child. At first the families came in a trickle. They came clutching ID cards specifying their Internally Displaced Person (IDP) status and the age of their children. Some brought their little ones to prove their need. Then the trickle sped up and soon two sides of the compound fence was covered with people several families deep.
The calls and pleading grew loud – hands reaching in and bodies pressing against the fence. People began to call to me, “Mamosta/teacher, please, please” and they showed me their child. They did not know that I had no say who could receive the warm clothing. I had just brought the money and helped to buy. Now I was standing and watching in the privileged area – where the ones with the power to give or not give stood.
I felt myself begin to shut down. A numbness began at the top of my head and proceeded down my body. The noise receded into the background as I retreated inside myself. I was jolted out for a moment as the crowd realised they could open the gate and head directly for the table. Panicked, the distributors pushed them back, locking them out again.
As I continued to watch I realised that I was starting to resent the people, the noise, the chaos, the claims of discrimination. I questioned how one group could be so loud and seemingly aggressive while another cultural group stood quietly waiting. But all of a sudden something made me stop. I questioned myself. What was this numbness all about? Why was I allowing myself to hide? Of what was my head afraid?
I pulled my psyche out of the crack it had crawled into and began to look at individuals – at one mother holding out the ID card; at one father with his little one in his arms. I tried to imagine their stories. I tried to put myself into their position. I was startled at the assurance that I would probably fight like a tiger to receive what was available to meet my family’s needs.
There were still people waiting behind the fence when the bags of clothes ran out. I was not the one who had to tell the last families to go back to their tents without the items for the children. I asked Parween how she felt about the day. She said that she was very happy. Two hundred and fifty children had warm clothing to face the winter chill. But she also was sad because she had tried her best to have enough for all the little ones and had failed. From what I hear, this is the feeling of many people who are trying their best to provide for the ones in such dire need.